Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Resignation of Cindy Sheehan

America's most visible anti-war mom has decided to leave the movement and put together what is left of her life. She has paid a dear price for her principles and her life will never be the same. Her Memorial Day post at Kos yesterday is a sad document. And even as she makes her decision public she is targeted with phrases such as the one she made the title of her post: "Good Riddance Attention Whore"

I have come to some heartbreaking conclusions this Memorial Day Morning. These are not spur of the moment reflections, but things I have been meditating on for about a year now. The conclusions that I have slowly and very reluctantly come to are very heartbreaking to me.

The first conclusion is that I was the darling of the so-called left as long as I limited my protests to George Bush and the Republican Party. Of course, I was slandered and libeled by the right as a "tool" of the Democratic Party. This label was to marginalize me and my message. How could a woman have an original thought, or be working outside of our "two-party" system?

However, when I started to hold the Democratic Party to the same standards that I held the Republican Party, support for my cause started to erode and the "left" started labeling me with the same slurs that the right used. I guess no one paid attention to me when I said that the issue of peace and people dying for no reason is not a matter of "right or left", but "right and wrong."
I have also reached the conclusion that if I am doing what I am doing because I am an "attention whore" then I really need to be committed. I have invested everything I have into trying to bring peace with justice to a country that wants neither. If an individual wants both, then normally he/she is not willing to do more than walk in a protest march or sit behind his/her computer criticizing others. I have spent every available cent I got from the money a "grateful" country gave me when they killed my son and every penny that I have received in speaking or book fees since then. I have sacrificed a 29 year marriage and have traveled for extended periods of time
away from Casey’s brother and sisters and my health has suffered and my hospital bills from last summer (when I almost died) are in collection because I have used all my energy trying to stop this country from slaughtering innocent human beings. I have been called every despicable name that small minds can think of and have had my life threatened many times.

I am going to take whatever I have left and go home. I am going to go home and be a mother to my surviving children and try to regain some of what I have lost. I will try to maintain and nurture some very positive relationships that I have found in the journey that I was forced into when Casey died and try to repair some of the ones that have fallen apart since I began this single-minded crusade to try and change a paradigm that is now, I am afraid, carved in immovable, unbendable and rigidly mendacious marble.

Thanks, Deborah White for noticing. Her comments and links are worth reading.

Like Cindy Sheehan I gave up arguing deeply held principles years ago. Having said that, I will add that I have only the deepest respect for anyone who sacrifices as much as she has lost because of her deep commitment to what she believes. When the history of this war is written, her name and the cause for which she fought will carry more respect than those who now malign her with foul language and contempt.

1 comment:

vietnamcatfish said...

Hello Hoots, Poor Cindy Sheehan found out the hard way.
As John Lennon once wrote ( in a song ):

"You think you're so clever and classless and free;
But you're still fuckin' peasants as far as I can see."

The political arena is just a bunch of whores selling themselves out for money and power.

Cliche. But ain't it the truth.